hmm..busy with sch work, bogged down with hw, council stuff and tv? hahaha..i seriously have no idea wat i haven been doing. juz rmb the days flying past me. juz blinked and it's time for test again. quite crappy la. i'm sick of jc life. the amount of stress is terrible. haha..for someone like me who hardly get stressed out..this is bad. i'm doing badly for all my tests..i'm not even passing them la. but i'm not doing anything to improve my grades. i can't follow the pace of jc life. then i see my class studying..then i look at myself. i'm slacking. council work is not causing me to be unable to complete my hw or study my tests..it's juz me. my own fault. plus the passing of tests is not juz a juz passed. i want more than tt..i dun wanna be at the bottom. this year has been a crappy and bad year for me. i complaining so much tt i afraid of myelf. shit. i never use to be like tt. but if i dun say..i think i'll kill a lot of trees.
ya. anyways. i haven involved in racial harmony day performance. i'm doing stunts with the skate scooter. haha..pretty stupid. yupp..i had to put up quite a lot of crap with the teacher in charge. i'm not gonna talk abt tt woman anyway. juz make me more pissed off. ya..rmb to watch tv..apparently there'll be reporters and stuff since there are big shots coming to pj. hahaha..yupp..so maybe i'll be on tv.*grins*
i wanna apologise to ppl. haha..sorry lydia. i sorta ignored ur smses. haha..every time i see ur sms is always at a bad time..then i'll forget to reply u. ya. sorry. sorry to weiling..i'll try to reply ur letter soon too. sorry jing coz i always seem to be in the council room in the morning and i dun get to talk to u in the morning. i'm doing well in sch neither in my social life. as in i feel tt i'm missing out in all my friends' life and it's juz..not like before. i dun think i can handle my life well anymore. i can't find my balance. i need to manage my life.
i'm near my breaking point.
